2004-08-21 - Mine2Tell
I travelled down a darkening flight
as I lay on my bed that night
a rollercoaster ride as such
deep tunnels,
speed increasing,
much
I'd eaten three caps,
maybe four,
organic mescaline -- what's more
I had to shut and lock the door
and put on Jethro Tull
Thick as a Brick (my skull)
then coming to a screeching halt
there came a voice within the vault
a portal to a magic land beyond
this is what the spectre said anon,
"Deny Christ and you may pass"
this quite near knocked me on my ass
except I snapped back to my little room
I shook myself and said, "t'would be my doom!"
It happened several times that night
each time I held my ground alright
my grandma and my mama taught me well
don't sell your soul or you'll end up in hell
but time's a slow cooked recipe
and though the fast track can't get me
there came a time when simmer turned to boil
the putting off became the troubled toil
and dripping from the brain cell trough
suppression of the bane fell off
and rising from the well within
the bubbling crude oil of my sin
came up to claim my soul
I nearly lost control
insanity is such a joke
until it gives your brain a poke
then trauma tries to make her yoke
asphyxiating you with smoke
or gradually pollute
(the devil's charming flute)
but somehow lending greatest glory
the happy ending to my story
is though I found no remedy
I slowly reached the end of me
and turned to see the truth:
the fun times in my youth
had left me with no shred of hope
I'd reached the end of dreaded rope
I had no way to deal or cope
the insects in my head
I wanted to be dead
but someone paid an awful price
and it was such a wicked vice
preventing me from what I now know true
Jesus laid his life down just for you
and in the darkest hour of day
he lifted up his voice to say
Eli, Eli, Sabachthani
an Aramaic phrase
God turned away his face
for in that moment heaven's child
healing lamb, so tender, mild
became the worst of sin, defiled
by acts against the love compiled
and listed as commandments
for justice did demand this
that only innocense could pay
and only love could make a way
and only one to whom we pray
could satisfy those words that day
"My God, why must you turn away?"
He turned away all that would rise
to keep the blinders on our eyes
he dealt with guilt and compromise
and all that separates, or tries,
His love respects free will
But woos us ever still
to come and know this strength
a love which goes the length
in long distance or short
in quick soul sell out sport
or long slow burn out hell
His sacrifice does well
it covers every sin
so come on, enter in!
But don't put off till when,
as waywardness intends,
you've gone beyond love's sight
like black holes sucking light
no, act while it's still day
for soon darkness will prey
gross darkness as they say
beyond love's guiding ray
no don't resist as I
and put off till the sky
becomes as hard as brass
and almost fries your ass
with unbelief and doubt
sincerely,
FreakYouOut
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