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2004-03-08 - Better Blessed I don't think I miss out -- you must be joking, right? let me just get this out -- I'm not provoking fights did you forget who you were talking to? do we have more confession time to do? nice try -- whatever, clever you, perhaps you have forgotten, foo my problem is that I enjoy the high of being the bad boy I don't think I've really missed a thing I've had it all my way on a shoestring The thing I struggle with is that, "how much fun can I go have and still make it to heaven when I'm done?" Because I know the verdict has been won because I know God's grace is there for me -- I wouldn't have a prayer if not for Him who brings me to my knees but I'd love to get as freaky as you please I know that when I do go out I always have a blast I know what it is all about, I'd love to smack that... ask I'll answer and you will not have to guess I know how to get down (not to excess) and that's what scares me in some wit because sin always has a price on it even if forgiven there is still consequences and I know that if I will go into it with presumption attitude with this assumption that God in His great love will bail me out His sovereignty will not be mocked about and He knows how to corral my wayward soul and bring me to the place of safe control where I'm humbled, as it says, "God opposes pride, blesses and gives grace to the humble" (paraphrased) and so I cannot win if I stay in such ways if I pridefully go on with this in any form -- licentiousness, it's not a pretty thing at its conclusion I don't need to get off into that confusion I have to be humble and pray for grace to resist temptation learn to face this glorious and wondrous gracious love freedom granted us from God above not use grace as a supply base for the flesh (carnal passions)and yes, gratifying sex I need to use grace to resist rather than as a license to kiss pursue whatever titilates my senses or at least make sure I subsidize expenses Make sure that it is meaningful lick the honey pot and bowl something not superficial and mutually beneficial... you see now, there I go... making way for hot loopholes! anyway, you got to know I'm not without the scruples how was your weekend, by the way? is there something I can say appropriately confess my way to being someone you can truly trust? a friend through thick and thin and magic dust? a someone who will be a random stranger not an obligating schedule rearranger... or perhaps we'll drive off in my offroad ranger and you'll only feel that pleasant sense of danger whatever turns you on, as long as you still belong to the only one whom you can truly trust the God who's always merciful and just the safeguard of the outermost extremes the one who can fulfill all of your dreams as long as they are good ones not the clockwork orangey hood ones with the horrorshow delight and carnage ploy those are not the kinds I want you to enjoy we don't do those, so lets cast them to the ground loose those spirits not consistant, heavenbound and if you need we'll focus on those things long enough to cast them out and bring deliverance from the evil beast I'll help you to discern at least about the time the power hits your head and all unfriendlies cower as though dead screaming out "my precious" in their dread and melting in the sea of lava, red just like Gollum clinging to his doom I'll show you how to clean each room it's easy when you know the one who rules inside the hearts of sons made sufficient only by his strength I'd love to talk this out with you at length so hit me up sometime we'll make the scene I'll pray for you and you'll see what I mean � � |